this is my life

this is my life. i think my life was so very miserable just not because of my family and friends, it's because I have a lot of problems that I can't resolve. I'm a teenager18 of age, but in my age I had a lot of problems that I encountered especially when the topic is all about LOVE!! before, i always say that "love is only for a stupid person". maybe I can say that because the person who I wish to be with me for the rest of my life was hurt me a lot. we love each other for 2 1/2 years but there's some circumstances that we cannot resolved. my love for him grow since when we are in High School life (4th year). graduation came and start of being independent and to face all the challenges that we need to encountered. College life came, were the same course but not ih the school. at first, it's seems to be "ok", but when we are in secondary level, both of us became busy in our study, in short were having "COOL OFF" for 2months. every second, every minute and every day, I feel that my heart become pulverized. because i really don't like that decision. It's seems that I'm WASTING my time. So I called him, the person I love him a lot, and I asked him, "what's your plan?", and he answered me that "i really need to be alone". he broke up with me with no reason. i care and love so much but all of that it become wasted. GOD say's, "its happened because they have a reason". =(